My identity is still pending AND THAT’S OK.
My thoughts aren’t always linear AND IT’S CHILL.
Here is the earliest completed sketchbook from UW-Stout that I can find. Brian Ritchie assigned us 30 self portraits over the course of a semester and I whined about it internally/externally the whole semester. P.S. I had a terrible attitude my first 3 or so years of college and it still haunts me most days; I cringe at myself hard and often, and I love that I have the ability to face and acknowledge rejection.
SHOUT-OUT TO MY HOMIES IN DRAWING 2 AND BRIAN RITCHIE AND EVERY PROFESSOR I HAD ; ANYONE WHO HAS BEEN MY FRIEND
In hindsight, Drawing 2 was one of my favorite classes. I would include Drawing 1 as well, but I was so nervous to be around so many creative minds, my tendency to be anxious in social situations won. That’ll happen.
THAT’S LIFE HOMIE.
I feel I never really properly thanked Brian Ritchie for being one of the many and extraordinary professors I interacted with at UW-Stout. UW-Stout taught me to think for myself. I never really took the time to embrace my own thoughts because I was trying so hard to fit in to the standards that were set for me. This isn’t a rant about any social movement, this is how I was raised. It was just Elementary School, Middle School, High School all over again; just patterns.
This is my last year at Stout and I honestly can’t wait to leave what I feel is often petty drama, whether it is or not. BUT, bad attitude or not- the professors I met and the peers I interacted with changed the course of life. I could never ever re-pay you guys for everything you did for me without even knowing it. Every smile my friends shot my way, any stupid pun, it all helped. I have some semblance of a goal/ vision in my head for the first time in a long time. THANK YOU.
SHOUTSOUT ALSO TO MY FAMILY MA DAD ADAM JORDON TIM KAREN LORI LINDSEY JOHN AHHHHH ALL OF THEM+++++++++++MORE
Is this getting too emotional? HERE’S SOME CRINGEY-ASS SELF PORTRAITS! Every drawing is associated with a song lyric that was probably important to me at some point because I think in song lyrics sometimes. Don’t get it twisted; I love these drawings. They are so honest. I experimented with some cheap medias and it was one of the most fun things I have done artistically.
EXPLORATION IS FUN
Popular culture still affects me a lot because I listen to rap songs mostly but I think it’s OK. Also, I thought I’d give you guys one last glimpse at me doing everything incorrectly: SHITTY, POORLY CROPPED SCANS INCLUDED!
EVERYTHING IS OK UNTIL IT ISN’T. FIND BALANCE. KNOW YOUR LIMITS.
i’LL SHARE SOME MORE adnvanced sketches later – maybe I’ll show you some of my game stuff! MAYBE I’LL MAKE A TUMBLR! MAYBE I’LL MAKE MY OWN SITE! I DUNNO! IT’S OK!
20-23 YEAR OLD ALYSSA 🙂